Back to work – sort of. Today was the first day working remotely since Thursday, so I think of it as my first ‘real’ day of working from home. It’s such a bizarre dynamic for me. Most of my job relates to performances, and they have all been canceled or postponed until at least mid-summer. …
Sparkling Isolation – Day 5
Bending the rules. I feel like I am finally settling into a sense of how to navigate being alone in my apartment. Just like a typical Sunday, I slept in late and allowed myself the leisure to lounge around in a t-shirt and pair of sweat pants for most of the day. One of the …
Diary of a Cockeyed Optimist: It’s OK to feel OK
I feel good. It’s odd to write that. It’s odd to feel it. It seems like I shouldn’t, like it’s disingenuous or fake or an illusion. But it’s none of those. I feel good. This morning I made biscuits from scratch and poached eggs. Yesterday my husband and I talked – like, on the phone …
Sparkling Isolation – Day 4
I feel like a yo-yo. Up, down, up, down, up, down. I think it’s natural during this time of uncertainty for all of us to feel that way. One moment fine, another spiraling into despair. One moment calm, another angry. Focused then frightened. That has been my day today. On a normal Saturday with no …
Sparkling Isolation – Day 3
Not so sparkling today. Day three is coming to a close. Today, as a Friday on the spring break schedule of the college where I work, is technically a holiday. So I didn’t commute into my home office today. I thought of it as I would a normal holiday and tried to focus on personal …
Diary of a Cockeyed Optimist
Well, this sucks. Now, what can I DO? That’s always my response when I have a problem. There’s a cycle: frustration or fear, depending on the cause, followed quickly by the search for a solution. Most of the time, that’s a good thing. My husband calls it Miss Fix-It mode. It’s fine if there’s actually …
Sparkling Isolation – Day 2
The new (ab)normal. I keep hearing people talk about the “new normal” as we move into this weird dystopian world. Dear God(dess)! I hope that this never becomes any sort of “normal” existence. Clearly, we are in a strange and bizarre reality now, but I absolutely don’t want to live in a world where this …
Sparkling Isolation – Day 1
Solitude or solitary confinement? For me, the energy of being alone has been the primary reality of my adult life. Except for an eight-year period where I was married (don’t ask), I have spent much of my adult life living alone. Dating has been a rare and infrequent experience, so I have learned the art …